Love

Had been sick for more than a week but thankfully I'm starting to feel better right now. Those days was literally the worst days I ever had since this year start. However, tough times made me realise things that I took for granted and those sweet friends that I had. Super grateful for my momma and papa during those days I'm sick. Even if it's means looking after me over the night and heading to work straight the next morning. Also, when my sissy brought a cupcake back to cheer me up. 
Love. :')

Suffocating

I like the word suffocating because I always knew how it felt to be suffocated, feeling breathless. Tonight, I realise I could no longer bottle up any more of my negative feelings. I'm literally having a mental breakdown, I lose control of my thoughts and I'm suffocating myself.

Out of all the broken people out there, I asked myself. Why me?
Why am I the one that fought so hard to get out of the life I hate and yet still suffering now? Why am I the one always feeling insecure? Why am I getting a little too paranoid these days? Why am I feeling extreme discomfort everyday? Why am I always stuck at the past? Why am I getting tortured by my thoughts every single night? Why am I so weak against my fears? Why me?

I miss those innocence, I miss those hugs, I miss those smiles, I miss myself being happy.
Someone please just teach me, how to fight those fears? I'm fucking suffocating every fucking single night.

Korean BBQ

Had Korean BBQ at 2D1N last month or few weeks back? Dinner was pretty awesome with all the yummy Korean cuisine and great company. :-)